The Person Who Inspires Me

Do I Still Have Any origin to Live? By darol_maranan_07 Name? Girolene Garcia. Every matchless calls me Gigi. Not only because its my foremost name, merely also becuse its what my initials spell out. 16 years of age. I guess it will end in that number. Im just about to die anyway I shall cut myself with this razor, or whitethornbe as yet jump from the top of this establishment Do I still construct any reason to live? Every adept sees me as worthless woman of this world. They phrase I have never done anythind good. Depressing, isnt it? wherefore should I carry this heavy burden all throughout my entire sprightliness?Living in this world is like being subjected to eternal damnation. You want to realize why it turned out like this? By sounding at your baffled expressions, I locoweed see that you desire to have sex about my decision in termination this life of mine. Well, Sir and Madam enthral listen carefully to the story of my life. People brand me as a juvenile delinquent . I am merely a teenager. Young in both mind and body. Vulnerable to mistakes and immaturity. In my current state, I am carefree. I swim in the pool of pleasure. I rarely go to shallow. You could easily spot me at the nearby street at Pauntum.Smoking, vocalizing in the videoke machine or just looking at the precious guyspassing by. Parents? Hmmm. They exist? I dont even know that thryre there. There was this time when I asked Mom about my science assignment. She answered (God) satanic it Cant you see Im busy preparing for my Tong-its? Yes, she was everto a greater extent busy with Mahjong,Tong-its. Those kinds of games I asked Dad the same question. He answered ngrrrhhh Heres ahundred bucks. Go ask your neighbor or your hot teacher ngrrrhhh dumbfound was drinking with the neighbors, as usual. I never had the best grades in schoolStill Im in Grade 5. I never really excelled in any part. One time, I was asked by my teacher to answer a math problem. Ms. Garcia Answer this 90 di vided by 10?. My teacher told me. I couldnt answer. I dont know the answer. I dont know how to get the answer. Hoping for skirt Luck to save me, I guessed. 19? Each one of my classmates laughed at my stupidity. STUPID IDIOT ITS 19 How Dumb of you Go theatre and wash your filthy clothes Bettr yet Wash your Brain. This is, if you have one? Hysteric laughter filled the small room. I was humiliated, embarrassed, ashemed.Me, the oldest person of the class, could non even answer a simple mathematical problem. My teacheer yelled You cant even divide 90 by 10 Why stretch out coming here when you dont even exact? Just go home worthless imbecible That is how my school lifes like. Friends? I have none. Everyone of them loathes me. I tried approaching one. I express with a calm approach. Hi there Can you be my help? She replie HELL NO Id rather be fill out and ugly than being friends with a stupid girl who cant even divide 90 by 10. I asked other stack and the replies i got we re Eeeww Why should I? There is no reason why I should befriend a person like you. If I were you, Id take a bath. You look and smell disgusting. this and that,this and that Guhhh No one wants tobe near me. Each time I hear of such jeers from everyone well-nigh me. I weep in depression. What have I done to be this kind of castigation? Why did God forsake everything from me? Though I may have the face of Ann Curtis, the body of Marian Rivera and the voice of Sarah Geronimo (sing A very Special Love), what you see is not always what you get.What I am is a young misled teenage girl, in need of somebody to counsel me, to enlighten my way and to guide me towards the right path. Throughout my 16 years of living, I have never encountered that someone. I guess, there may be no reason for me to live. I ask for you judgement. I know somehow that youll blame me for being another bane of this society, reckless and rebellious, but thats my only way to express my demand of attention and love . I wanted to scape, I wanted to find someone whom I could apportion story with, someone who would bestowe me the best advice, someone omeone but how? none would bother to heed. I never wanted to live this kind of life, no direction and miserable. what I want now is to be free from all of this. Thats why I came up into a dicision of terminating my life. I am more ready to face death than to face insults all over once more at least when Im gone, I am so much fed up. Maybe, after the long run, people woudld appreciate my existence. So everyone, before its too late Im mendicancy you to answer me, is ther anymore reason for meto live?